Wednesday, August 17, 2011

New blog, new start

Yeah I don't really feel like having a blog filled with broken/missing images so I'm going to start fresh with a new one. It feels sad to leave this one but it feels kinda right to make a new one as well. I'll probably re-post a couple of my latest images that I posted here on my new one as well and then I gotta fix the layout and shit.
It's empty right now but here it is anyways:

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Theokin Tracker

Now I've finished the proper drawing of a Theokin. It's a hunter tracking its prey, obviously. I got a bunch of random facts about them that I haven't had the chance to touch up in to a proper text so I'll just paste it as it is here for now.

The Theokins

White lizard-like creatures who mostly lives in snowy mountains but it has been rumoured that there are more tribes in other cold parts of the world. Kind of primitive but chooses to lives this way. They hunt to survive but they are not a violent race and does sometimes trade dried meat and animal hides/pelts if they are in need of something that they can’t find themselves in the mountains. But in order to trade they need to travel to one of the cities inhabited by other races outside the mountain area.

They live in smaller tribes with an elder as a leader. The elder can be either a male or a female Theokin but they have no real authority. Though the tribe respects and finds the advice, wisdom and knowledge of the elder when they decide things in the tribe. So there’s no real king or authority in the tribes. It’s just made up off of hunters with various secondary skills like skinning or building and crafting. A few of them leave the tribes to travel and/or trade but usually has some kind of level of hunting skills seeing as they learn this at an early age.

They have a god that represents the nature and they also got various smaller deities that they believe in. The god looks like a reindeer but with facial features that reminds you of a Theokin and they call it Raz'ingo. It is just a protector of the Theokins and not something they pray to in order to fulfill their needs because as long as they are protected and alive; they can fulfill their own needs without a higher deity handing everything to them. So they believe in working hard to get where they want instead of wishing they had the things they want.

Theokins don’t have any proper buildings except for one or two larger tents for storage and cooking. They usually build their little settlement around one or several caves and use them for storing of food and protection when needed. Some Theokins can find incredibly large cave and tunnel systems and ends up doing most things in there except for maybe a few tents outside the entrance for cooking and hunting tents for hunters to use when they are about to prepare for a hunt.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


I've been on an unexpected trip to my girlfriends mother and then my own mother for the past week. Kinda came out of nowhere that we were going there or otherwise I would have updated sooner.
Anyway, I've mentioned a project that I worked on before and here's a sketch of a race I made that I call 'Theokins'. I'll post a coloured picture of one later with a better description of them because I've been really in to working on this project lately. I've written some info about these and tons of info about another race. And a little about yet another one. EITHER WAY I'll post it all in time so enjoy these for the moment... now I'm off to the bank to get my moneh.

"A mistake made by many people with great convictions is that they will let nothing stand in the way of their views, not even kindness." - Bryant H. McGill

Monday, June 27, 2011

Winging it

I've been kinda neglecting my digital studies but I'm trying to get the portfolio done as quick as possible... aaaand this weekend I kinda got addicted to Dragon Age 2 for a bit ( shaaame on me D: ) but I'm putting it on hold now so I can do my art. The next piece will probably be an angel like picture so I'm practising wings and feathers.
These are mostly studies from birds but one or two were referenced from drawings made by Johannes Voß.

"Don't give up. There are too many nay-sayers out there who will try to discourage you. Don't listen to them. The only one who can make you give up is yourself".
- Sidney Sheldon

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Ye ole couple

A couple drawing of me and my wonderful girlfriend Hannah <3
Wanted to do a sort of victorian/1800 style couple portrait and if I coulour it I'll add a sort of oval shaped frame around it. I will also try and make the faces more realistic but not super realistic. We'll see how it goes lmao.

Friday, June 17, 2011


Me and my girlfriend have been playing with henna a lot these past two days and we've been talking about it for over a week so I got tempted to draw something henna inspired. So here we go. A girl with dreads and henna. Might do something serious out of it but for now, I need to finish my RIFT contest entry. 2 days remaining.

"Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Bark Bark

It's been a while but I've been in Stockholm for my brothers graduation and to meet my parents together with Hannah. We met her mother as well before she went off to Oman.
And now I'm back to drawing again so now I'm working on my contest entry for the RIFT contest that I mentioned in my previous post. Gotta hurry because I just got 4 days left aaaaaaaaaa.. but I kinda like the feeling of having a deadline <3

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Pow, right in the kisser

Getting back to doing studies. Spent about a week to finish that hunting drawing to see how fast I can finish a piece since I tend to take so long. But now I will try to draw at a higher speed without sacrificing quality and do studies as well like I did before. So my next piece I'll try to do a colossus drawing for a RIFT contest on DA.

And I see that I'm still afraid of using hard brush strokes instead of turning the opacity and flow down a load. Just gonna keep practising.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

The Hunting

It's done. That took me, what, less than 10 days to complete? May seem like a lot for some but for me it's an improvement. Though it may seem rushed instead which isn't good. Oh well, I'm learning how to speed up my work instead of taking a month for each piece.
I did have fun rendering the lizardy-camel-horse thingies(I really need to think of a name for them) head though.

"Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible."
- Claude Bissell
Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible.


Thursday, May 26, 2011

The Hunting WIP

A quick WIP I started on today. Took me forever to get some of the perspective right. I need to do a lot more animal anatomy studies urgh. Oh well, I'm liking it so far c:

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Naga Matriarch

Here we go, I finished this piece at last. I started this before I did the Terra Nova piece and finished this after it so I don't think the colouring in this one does me justice. It looks like I burn-tooled the shit out of it at parts. The fact that colours on my laptop screen are way more desaturated than on a proper monitor doesn't make things easier. So I ran between my laptop and my girlfriends computer to see if the colours were as properly saturated as I could make them with this piece. Still, not too happy with the colouring but I learned some stuff from doing this drawing, jumping to the Terra Nova piece and then back to this. Made me realize a lot of things about colouring and about creating basic forms before putting in detail in a picture.
Oh and I just noticed that some of the shadows are falling way off from the light source HNNNNG.

"Never give up. Almost nothing works the first time it's attempted. Just because what you're doing does not seem to be working, doesn't mean it won't work. It just means that it might not work the way you're doing it. If it was easy, everyone would be doing it, and you wouldn't have an opportunity." - Bob Parsons

Monday, May 23, 2011


This is the current design of one of the people in my little project. I'm currently calling them Core'vidan[kɔr ' vidæn ?] for the moment but I'm not sure on the name so it might change. Not that the name is that important now when I'm just trying to focus on just making concepts.

So these guys, the Core'vidians, are a kind of bird-like people(obviously) and they are all based off of birds in the Corvidae family, i.e. birds like ravens, crows, jackdaws, magpies and such. They are a knowledge hungry race that often end up as some kind of scholar or doctor which makes them extremely intelligent and great healers. They are unable to use magic from their own body but they can use magical objects that they find and create themselves. And because they are so hungry to know everything, they obviously have explorers as well that travels out through out the world and documents everything. They tend to spend most of their time on the ground but if they have to (when they need to flee or travel) they can fly quite well.
The Core'vidians will be the creators of this gigantic library/city that I mentioned earlier in my first project sketches of Zoe.
But as always, every race can't be perfect so even the Core'vidians got traitors, criminals, robbers and others who deviates from the typical and just path of the Core'vidians. Which is why they have been forced to train a few fighters in this city, to protect themselves. But they are pacifists so they rather create alliances with others to both help them out in their search for knowledge and to protect them in their own home. In return, they gladly help their allies with information.. to a certain extent that is. They do not like to share information that may be used to start wars or gain superior power over others.

The cloth design of these is inspired mostly by 1800- and early 1900 western clothing. Not sure how to do the females yet though but we'll see.

"We have to learn to be our own best friends because we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies."
- Roderick Thorp

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Terra Nova

It is finished I guess haha. I lost hope on the background and the surroundings but I was pretty happy with the dryad. Also, weird boob is weird. Anyways, it was a pretty fun piece to work on (except for the background that is) and I learned something from it, which is the most important thing.
Don't have much more to say about this except for.. Enjoy!

“If you want to be happy, be.” -
Leo Tolstoy

Friday, May 20, 2011


Look at them noses. Yeah I've always had trouble drawing them so I did a couple of studies on photoshop. I have a few sketches in my sketch book as well but I can't be bothered to scan those right now.. I think I want to draw a few more before I do that actually.

“Without trust, words become the hollow sound of a wooden gong. With trust, words become life itself.”
- John Harold

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Gotta catch 'em all

Took my way longer than it should have but I didn't get much sleep last night so I kinda dozed off half way through. Anyways, it's a photo study of an adorable little girl. The ref photo was found on Flickr and I'd recommend visiting there if you want photo references of people or possibly buildings and scenery.

Powerglove! ....just because I'm addicted to this song at the moment. Oh god why.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Draw me like one of your french girls

Another quick colour study I did today before lunch. I know the colours are a bit messy but I was going to fix it when I realized that I kinda liked the messiness of it so I left it. But I slacked on the face haha. But the point wasn't to get her look to look like my reference picture but to learn about colours, light and shapes.

"Achievement seems to be connected with action. Successful men and women keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit." - Conrad Hilton

Tuesday, May 17, 2011


Quick study I did earlier today before I streamed on livestream for a little bit. I did this awfully quick but damn it looked much better than expected. Messy but good none than less.

"You can give in to the failure messages and be a bitter deadbeat of excuses. Or you can choose to be happy and positive and excited about life." - A.L. Williams

Wednesday, May 11, 2011



GOD I keep dying on this place.. or every place. But I do draw! I just sketch mostly because I tried to put together a commission list that I'll be putting up on Deviantart and probably Furaffinity(since people buy commissions there like crazy).

Anyways, these are quick concept sketches I did in my moleskin sketchbook for a personal project of mine that, once again, Conny inspired/told me I should do after I saw his project: Adam's Dream(click and check it out btw).
I barely got anything figured out for this except that it's going to be fantasy/steam punk-ish. The main character will probably be this girl named Zoe with two robot arms that works for some kind of organisation that gathers information from all over the world to fill their library. They are basically hungry for knowledge but they don't plan on using it against anyone. It's just that the information they got in their huge ass building will be tempting for others so they need to stay protected and gain allies that helps them. Well that's the basic idea. I have no idea how it will turn out later but that's the fun part, you get to explore, experiment and learn c:
All in all it's just something to keep me drawing and inspired.

Oh and that hairy lizard thing is kinda like a camel/dromedary mixed with a gecko and iguana. It's supposed to be an animal that you ride through deserts and such.

....and if you got any suggestions for a name for this project, please leave your suggestions in a comment here or on my Deviantart if you'd rather do so c:

Friday, April 29, 2011

Terra Nova WIP

Doing a quick-ish piece of some dryad girl lost in the jungle. It's currently just a work in progress. I'm trying to learn not to get too much in to the rendering before I've established the basic colours and light sources and all that stuff that gets neglected when I focus too much on rendering. It's also a chance for me to play with lighting, shadow positions and a bit of composition... but mostly colours and light so I'm not too much all over the place.
For some reason I was inspired by Conny's Amazon Female concept drawing that I saw on his DA... oh Conny, how you always make me puuuuuuuuuush it to da limit... I mean push myself harder <3

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

One for sorrow, two for joy..

Since I'll be opening commissions on Fur-Affinity as well, I thought that I might as well create some anthro characters. I guess this would be my fursona or whatever. He's a magpie since I'm sort of in love with magpies and have been for a while now. I'll try to get a few sketches up of other anthros that I've been drawing as well... one of them is on an A3 paper though so the scanner is a bit too small for it. And I think I lost the cable for the camera so I can't take a picture of it. Oh well, I'll just draw it on a smaller piece of paper instead c:

Also, check out my girlfriend and my joint blog, Tough Lovers blog.

“Cheerfulness keeps up a kind of daylight in the mind, filling it with a steady and perpetual serenity”
- Joseph Addison

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Naga WIP + short trip

Here's a cropped version of the Naga piece I'm working on currently. Kinda happy with it but I need to play around with the face to give it more life or something. And pump up the saturation and contrast a bit. But I'll have to do that later because I'll be gone for like a week now to visit my family quick and my girlfriends family at some family reunion/birthday party they are having. I'll probably bring the laptop and tablet but I don't know how much time I'll have for drawing. But we'll see.

Oh and my girlfriend and I are making a joint blog: Tough Lovers. Not much there yet but soon there will be and it will contain everything from our art and sketches to random posts and photos to random video clips and so on.

"And when you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and not let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt — this is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight." - Elizabeth Gilbert

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Havent seen the last of me

Getting in to studies again, I hope, after a few unexpected speed bumps in life.
Also, starting on a few pieces that I hopefully will use in my portfolio. Gotta get my gear up and learn how to paint faster if I'm going to make this any time soon.
If you got any tips on what to touch up/fix/add, please let me know.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

A warm smile

I'm not sure what I did with this. The light source is all over the place and the foreground thingie with the textures look really bad because I went lazy at that point and I kind of forgot what the hell I was doing. But I did get happy with the fact that I got the chance to experiment the hell out of it with lighting and colours. So even if it's not as great as I hoped fore I still learned a lot from it. And for that I am thankful... I guess it doesn't look as bad as I described but it's still kinda off.
And since I'm feeling like I'm slowly getting back to my optimistic self again I shall end this with a quote again.

"What poison is to food, self-pity is to life." - Oliver C. Wilson

Thursday, March 24, 2011

21st century love?

Lookie lookie, some old characters that I revamped. No official outfits, just some experiments c:

1. Devi
2. Can't remember but I think it was Aniela... I need to change that horrible name. Oh and kudos to Jenna for drawing that old version of her.
3. Lico
That first one in the line of the new ones is Weelow in some outfit I just played around with.

And here's a rant of some sort you don't need to read if you're only here for the art. Sorry if it's a bit all over the place or doesn't make sense.

During recent days I’ve started to realize more and more how true the saying ”ignorance is bliss” is. I noticed this especially by hanging out on Facebook every single day for the past few weeks. I hope I don’t make this look like a rant (it probably will be though. Also, I apologize if I sound a bit patronizing as well.) but I felt an unexplainable need to write this somewhere. Because that’s what our generation seem to do these days when we got a problem with something. We write it down where everyone can see it.

Now I don’t mind that… if it’s on blogs or vlogs or something similar because you choose to hear or read about it. But it’s when it comes to Facebook its right in your face when you sign on whether you like it or not. People feel the need to pester the rest of us with their dramas and make us all depressed. They feel the need to start arguments in wall-posts and comments where everyone can see them instead of just talking it out in person, over the phone or even in a simple IM or note. No, because apparently everyone has to see it. Everyone needs to get dragged in to that black hole of depression that may belong to someone you don’t even know or haven’t met more than one time before.

Why do we do that? Why do we need everyone’s attention when there is only a hand full of people involved? I am sick of it. I’m a pretty optimistic guy and tend to be calm in most cases. I can’t even remember last time I got really mad. But this has been gnawing me for quite some time and just recently I’ve seen a boom of drama that, for some reason, needs to be on display for hundreds and hundreds of uninvolved people.

And the main topic in these dramas seems to be relationships. “This person did this and that person did that. That person cheated with this person so these two break-up and that person gets mad at that person for doing something. This person is in a relationship with that person and that person dislikes that”. Ok, I’m not saying this is what I’ve seen on my Facebook but it might as well have been because I’m just as annoyed either way.

It just feels like the respect for the whole concept of being in a relationship (in my generation at least. Can’t speak for the rest) is just being thrown around, chewed at and spat out in the dirt like a chewing toy at a kennel with rabid dogs. People going behind their partners back, cheating, lying, making up and then start doing the same shit all over again. I don’t even get how some forgive a cheating partner multiple times. And I don’t know how some partners continue to cheat, knowing how devastated and destroyed their “significant other” would be if he or she found out. I guess I would have to know their whole story before I could really say anything about that. Personally I don't know if I'd be able to forgive someone who cheated on me. I might just be out that door so fast or maybe I'd need to stay and hear out the whole story before I did anything in a rush. Not sure. Though I'm not saying I will be cheated on, just saying that that’s two of the things I imagine myself doing if put in that situation. If you insist on being with someone else than your partner just dump whoever you’re dating, break up your engagement with your fiancé or divorce whoever you’re married to. Just spare your partner the extra pain and hurt instead of creating a humongous cluster fuck of shit and despair of it all. Are you afraid of telling the truth? Well that’s something you need to think of before you do something like that.

Found this quote in some PDF about Jesus and God and crap. I’m not religious or Christian or anything but Christianity does teach some good things at least. Telling the truth, even when we are afraid of the consequences, is one way we show respect for each other and build right relationships. And I agree. I would rather hear the harsh truth than a sugar coated lie.

But I don’t know, maybe I’m old fashioned? Maybe my views on relationships are a bit conservative and old? Maybe that’s how things work these days? Personally I feel like a relationship is between two loving people (not counting Mormons I guess?) that love, trust and RESPECT each other. Emphasis on respect. Actually, emphasis on love, trust AND respect. Because you cannot have one without the other in a healthy relationship. But who am I to decide what the definition of a relationship is. Maybe the modern definition of it is ‘to be together with someone you love but sleep around with others behind their back or constantly fight and distrust each other’. Is that 21st century love?

“Never take a person's dignity: it is worth everything to them, and nothing to you.” - Frank Barron

Friday, March 18, 2011

The British Man

Just a study I started on yesterday and finished today. Not sure what to think of it but it turned out kinda alright actually. This time the face turned out better than on the other ones. The arms are kinda awkward though.

Can't be bothered with any motivational quotes today.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


A sloppy little photo study I did today. Gonna try to do at least a couple of these studies every week. And I've done two in three days so I feel sort of productive.

And here's a portrait of a friend of mine that I did while I was in town.

"Commitment leads to action. Action brings your dream closer." - Marcia Wieder

Monday, March 14, 2011


Hm at least it didn't take me a month between posts this time. I'm slowly getting back in to it... I hope. Either way, did a photo study yesterday and a couple of sketches last night that I kinda like. I did a crap load of gesture studies and stuff as well but I can't be bothered to scan all those. They look a bit too sketchy for this blog and should be put up on my ConceptArt instead. Lets see when I can start getting back in to that haha. Once I start produce stuff almost every day on a weekly basis I'll start posting them on CA again.

Yeah his face looks retarded but it wasn't what I was focusing on so I just left it at this.
It was mainly the colours and the lighting I wanted to get right.

And here's some sketches. Tried out a few expressions and stuff.

"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." - Winston Churchill

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Sketch Compilation

Here we go, a sketch compilation from the past month or two. I've just started to settle down after moving my stuff back from my old flat and then moved to my girlfriend. So hopefully I'll manage to pop out a drawing now and then now instead of once every one or two months D:

Started drawing this girl last night and finished her today. I so love it for some reason.

Random sketches from the past two months.

And a so-so drawing of Kim Pine yeaaaaaaaa

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Monday, February 7, 2011

Four eyes

A quick fan art for Minochi on DeviantART since I didn't know what to draw this one night and she suggested one of her characters so why not. No clue what his name is though.
I think I'll use this as an example for line art commissions once I make a price list of the different kind of drawings I'll be selling soon enough.

And I'm still slow on the art front these days but I hope that will stop either at the end of the month or next month when I've finished moving out of my old student flat and moved my stuff over to my girls place instead.. or at least the things that I need since I doubt everything would fit in her room. I'll get the rest once I got my own place with her or something like that instead.
But yes, bear with me and I'll get back to my old studies and art nerding soon enough.

"The question for each man to settle is not what he would do if he had means, time, influence and educational advantages; the question is what he will do with the things he has. The moment a young man ceases to dream or to bemoan his lack of opportunities and resolutely looks his conditions in the face, and resolves to change them, he lays the corner-stone of a solid and honorable success." - Hamilton Wright Mabie

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Values and life

Haven't finished a study in ages but here we go, another value study. I'm having a hard time doing studies at this time seeing as I'm quitting college so there fore I need to get myself a job. And on top of that I got my parents on my back bugging me about quitting college, what I'm going to do instead and how I'm going to pay off my debts. So I'm currently at my girlfriends place, then I'm going home to my mum for a day or two and theeeen back to my own place at college to get things sorted out over there. So yeah, kinda hard to make studies at times haha.

Monday, January 10, 2011

A bottle of crappy studdies

Damn, making poses took longer than I expected them to. At least if you do them digitally.. so I haven't made as many as I wished. And that bottle study was horrible I don't even know why I'm posting it gah D:
I've also felt a little ill today so all I've done is sketching a little in my sketchbook but I'll try to do some colouring on a piece I'm working on at the moment.

"I hate when I think of questions I don't want to know the answer to." - Daniel Velu

Saturday, January 8, 2011


There we go, getting in to studies again. Her butt looks a bit flat though gah. More value studies for me then.
I'm also going to try this 100 studies thing that they do on Crimson Daggers. I'll do 100 studies of something so I think I'll do 100 poses to begin with. 15 poses a day should let me be done in about 8 days if I stick to it.

"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight." - Benjamin Franklin

Day 03 and 04

I'll do two of them today since I missed one yesterday.

Day 03 →Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Hm this is a tough one. I haven't really put much thought in to this one to be honest. I mean sure, alcohol should be consumed with moderation and I guess drugs shouldn't be taken at all. But from what I hear there are exceptions. Some say that marijuana is just as ok as alcohol but I wouldn't know since I haven't tried it. Wouldn't surprise me though since if someone were to invent alcohol drinks today instead of thousands of years ago we'd probably classify it as some kind of illegal drug as well. I'm not saying I'm okay with drugs, I'm just saying that sometimes the line can be a bit blurry. Obviously most drugs are horrible and should not be used by anyone though.

Day 04 →Your views on religion.

I say that everyone has their right to their own belief. If one finds comfort or if their unanswered questions gets answered by a higher deity or some kind of old philosopher then I'm not going to oppose any of that. I'm not being hurt by it and they feel better so how is that a bad thing? I mean I even take inspiration from religious texts at times.. Buddhist ones but still religious. Yet I don't fully agree with Buddhism. Only certain parts of it.
But religion turns bad when these people try to shove their beliefs down my throat and telling me and others what to do. When they or the religion tells you how to live your own life rather than letting ourself choose that I get a bit annoyed. Yes, just a bit annoyed because apparently I never get mad at stuff or people haha.

Hm, I thought I'd have a shit load to write about this subject but I really don't. Basically, I have no problem with religion as long as they don't force it upon people or even their own children, which a lot of religious people do sadly. But those who doesn't, thumbs up to you.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 02 →Where you’d like to be in 10 years

  • I'm hoping that I'll be working with illustration and/or concept art as either a freelancer or possibly for a company. Probably easier as a freelancer at first but we'll see what I enjoy doing most of the two. Either way, I'm going to be an artist. That's already decided.
  • I want to be in love.
  • I'd like to have a family started by then in a nice home and a steady income that can maintain a family. I don't need a big fancy house. A spacy apartment or a smaller house is fine.. as long as we're happy with it.

  • I want to have met most of my closest online friends by then.

  • Be happy in general. No matter what my situation may be in 10 years I want to be happy. And I wont let my self be anything but happy even if I have a couple of gloomy days now and then.

"All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him." - Gautama Buddha

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Day 01 → Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

I got this list a few days ago from my friend Jenna just before new years. I thought I knew what I'd write about on 'Day 01' back then but so much happened during the past few days so I gotta re-think what I need to write down now.

Disclaimer: This really only concerns the people who are involved or feel like they need some kind of explanation. I'm not doing it for any kind of attention from you. I'm not looking for drama. I'm not trying to create drama. This is just to answer some peoples questions.

A few months back me and my girlfriend separated, for reasons that are of no-one else's concern, and now we're back together again. Giving it a second chance basically. And with this comes a lot of drama and problems and we know that. We knew that from the second we decided to give it another go. And the problems probably wont come from the two of us at first but from others. The major problem would be the opinions of the people close to us. They would lose their respect for us, some more than others, and judge us for doing this. They would start to think less of us as people just over one single decision and look down upon us when we're still the same people we were before. Sure, it's a big decision but we still act the same and we still think the same as we did before we got together. Yet some of the closer people to us will probably still manage to look past that and just go the easy way and start judging instead of looking at it in a bigger picture. They could support us and our decision as a friend/parent/relative for the sake of being a good friend/parent/relative and for the sake of our happiness instead of pushing their opinions and/or social rules on what's acceptable and what's not acceptable in a relationship in our faces. Different people are different so nothing is black and white in a situation like this.
Actually, I take that back about the problem part. It wont be a problem because I wont let it be a problem. Yes, it will be inconvenient, but I wont let it get us down just because someone doesn't agree with us.

And you probably do wonder why we got back together if you're still reading this, in my opinion, unnecessary explanation to one of our life choices. Well basically, we still love each other. We might have done stuff we regret doing or thinking but we are still in love and we decided that this love was worth another shot. Sure, I had a couple of things that weighed against giving it another shot but I also had stuff that weighed for trying again, so in the end, the stuff that weighed for it won.
Strangely enough, it was also my fathers words that echoed in my head when I was considering what to do. He hadn't told me this for this specific situation but often I get to hear "Just go for it. You're young, live a little or you'll regret it". I don't know why, but those words has been stuck in my head for a while. Probably because I agree whole heartedly with those words and most likely because he says it so often as well.
But yes, I do love my girl and even if I might be putting my emotions at risk I still don't want to live my life regretting and wondering what could have happened. I'm not going to go through this relationship thinking that it might end or that something bad will happen because then it will happen for sure. I'm going to through this with the attitude that we will make this together no matter what shit we get from others and from life in general. Because I genuinely believe we can. We're forgetting the past, looking at where we're standing right now and then we look at where we want to stand in the future. We are willing to put everything on this because we think it's worth it. It's as simple as that really. I love Hannah and still respect her. My love and respect for her can only grow right now and I don't plan on stopping something like that. Some of these things may sound like a cliché but sometimes there is a reason to why certain things are clichés.

So there you have it. A, in my opinion, pointless explanation to why we're doing this. But it feels like we'll be getting a lot of (or at least some) questioning and such so I thought I'd write this and just let them read it instead of writing/telling a separate explanation to each and every person who asks because that would be extremely bothersome. I don't expect people to change their mind about anything but at least try to keep your negative comments and bashfulness to yourself if you can't say anything nice or helpful. If you've lost respect for me, then so be it. I can't really undo what has been done and I don't really want to either.

(Yes I did watch 'Tron Legacy' recently, shut up.)

PS. Not happy with the explanation? Sorry, but it's all I got for you.

PPS. Sorry for the incredibly long sentences and extremely bad punctuations in the text but I was too tired to fix any of that D: